Sigh
I don’t intend on hurting anyone in the process of my mind trying to figure things out. It seems as if everything is so confusing but it is not actually…. I think.
Also, I really cannot afford to be thinking about this as much as I am now anymore. I need to start focusing. A levels…
But the biggest biggest uncertainty is whether I’m acting out of loneliness which cannot be fair to either party. I don’t know if I’m actually liking anyone just because everyone is getting together and I’m so jealous.
Or do I really miss what I felt before which was knowing for sure that someone loves me and that I actually mean something to the person.
I really don’t want to lead anyone on. I need time and that’s something we don’t have. Rushing is not good. Yet I am impatient.
What is this?
