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♫ // one's not enough

white blindness and everything hurts

it’s heartbreaking that i tell you everything (despite how lagged, ultimately, you’d get to know) yet receive nothing. every single fucking time. every every every time (don’t you dare deny). it’s not fair on me neither is it on you (since it seems that i’m in a way always the one breaking you down when i tell you my feelings and its nuances and the complete truth). i have GP on wednesday. in order for me to focus i will try to forget everything until wednesday (and possibly beyond if the forgetting, as sad is it is, comes naturally).

it’s just not fair and i cannot take this BULLSHIT anymore. if this is how it’s gonna be, fine. i cannot afford for this to take a toll on my well-being (which immensely affects my performance in everyday tasks). btw idc if ur reading.

now i’m thinking, if everything does actually somehow go back to normal. what if there’s another terrifying repeat of this around the A level period??????? what then??????? this simply cannot happen. i’m not gonna screw up the rest of my life because of this.

now i’m feeling cheated. letting my emotions run wild this evening and allowing it to drive my attitude towards work. i think, there’s no point anymore. you really screwed things up.

pissed

i am old enough to know what’s good for me and what’s not. what’s too much and what i lack. i just wish you would stop making such a big deal out of things and let me judge for myself. i know it’s a parent’s job to moderate and stuff and i really don’t mind but to this extent? 

it just pisses me off and i’d go into rebel mode. so i’m not gonna study.

Anonymous asked: give me a clue about him at least!

aiyo who is this so kpo hahahaha

Anonymous asked: who's the lucky guy?

that’s for you to find out :)